Has it really been two months already? Has it only been two months? Any given day, I go back and forth between the two many, many times. Everyone keeps telling me to savor these early days and weeks, because before I know, she will be graduating from college. It’s true, part of me is a little sad that Little Miss has outgrown her newborn clothes and diapers. But another part of me can’t wait until she can sit up on her own, crawl, walk, drive…. I can’t say exactly why I’m so eager for her to grow up. I’m certainly not in a hurry to get older myself!
At the same time, I’m already getting anxious about going back to work and putting C in daycare full time. I worry about how long I’ll be able to keep breastfeeding, whether she will get enough attention at daycare, and how I’ll be able to focus on work when my baby is spending the majority of her waking hours with someone who is not me. I know everything will be just fine. I know it, but it doesn’t stop the worry.
Aside from worrying about things I can’t control, things which won’t even happen for another few weeks, things are going amazingly well. I recovered quickly from my c-section, and breastfeeding is going well. (I had some awful cracked nipples for a few weeks, which made me dread each feeding, but once I healed, it became an enjoyable bonding time for us.) I don’t mind not leaving the house for days at a time (I’m a homebody), but I do enjoy getting out once in a while to run errands with C or have dinner with M.
Not every day is unicorns and rainbows, of course. We both have bad days, especially around growth spurts. But, overall, I couldn’t ask for a better experience.
Getting to Know Little Miss
Likes Eating, sleeping, lying on her changing table, baths, swinging, dancing, The Beatles, light fixtures, being held to look around over my shoulder
Dislikes The act of swaddling (she loves it once she settles in), being put to sleep, car seat, not being held 24/7, pacifiers
She lost a bit of weight after birth, but with frequent feedings, she gained it back in less than two weeks, without having to supplement. Now she’s growing like a weed and hitting all the milestones right on time!
Some Stuff I’ve Learned
Do NOT underestimate the importance of a good latch when breastfeeding. I could have saved myself a great deal of pain had I worked harder on it.
Swaddling is essential to a good night’s sleep. Swaddle Me and Halo swaddle sacks are awesome!
You can’t always sleep when baby sleeps, but you should at least half of the time.
There’s no shame in asking your mom to do your laundry, wash your dishes, or clean your bathroom.
The pain of infertility never goes away, even when you’re snuggling your baby. Pregnancy announcements from fertiles still hurt like hell.
I’m really looking forward to the holidays. This is the first year in a long time that I’ve been able to say that!